clean that cavity

i hate it if i have to “work with you so i can maintain my position”. i hate if it i have to be around you for a reason. i didn’t know i’m really this sensitive. but well. i guess i served my purpose, and now i’m off. no more roller coaster days after this, so i hope you’ll be at peace.

the thing is, when i know i have to serve a purpose, i get too obliged. like i’m carrying some responsibilities. to get you from a point to another. i will try to do just that. and because it means business, i get serious. not expecting perfection, but i’m expecting effort. effort for improvement. fine if you’re not perfect.

when you’re expected to steer the car, what else do you do. you steer. you don’t take the backseat. only, i’m a rough driver. i go off the beaten path. rougher roads, longer journey. but the scenery is always better. always, always.

well i really hope i have served my purpose. like, you’re really at point B from point A where you used to be. i hope you’re at point B now. i really do. don’t ask me where you’re at. you know where you’re at.

wow. i really didn’t know i can really be this sensitive. i really didn’t know.

but well. maybe i misunderstood after all. but next time i will be careful. careful not to say something like “i want to work with you to maintain my interest”. that could hurt the other party, especially if he/she is equally sensitive as myself. and that, gives the other party some kind of power, which when exercised, i will feel more hurt. it backfires.

oh and one more thing. i’m not that good anyways so no point counting on me.

p.s.: when i serve my purpose, i’m happy.

 

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