Danial. al-Fatihah.

i had a long day. it’s Saturday night and it’s raining. a lovely atmosphere for winding down. a mug of tok’s homemade coffee would’ve made it all perfect.

or so i thought. until i got a text from one of my dearest, dearest friend.

“…danial da xde. Mgrib td da kemb ke rhmtulh..”

how are things supposed to be perfect when you got that. just a week after hari raya. just a month before she’s due with her second baby.

nevermind my feelings. how is SHE feeling right now…

here comes a very interesting part. i spent my morning at a collague’s house, just the next street from my Minmin’s house. i was meant to visit Minmin. it’s raya, haven’t met them for ages, i missed her and everything.

but had to leave for somewhere else. but it’s ok, i still left my car there. so i got back there. perfect. only that, i had to leave as i had to reach my next destination by 6.30. an hour before Danial left. left us forever.

i don’t know. i can’t even imagine. rumah Minmin belakang tu je. memang i dah niat nak pegi pun. can’t blame my so-called packed schedule can i.

it’s raya time. one month to go before the second baby comes around. and everything else. how would Minmin feel. ya Allah… please, please grant her all the strengths in the world she needs it more than i do…

i don’t want to talk about Danial too much. it will break her heart big time if Minmin reads it. just so you know, he was a gorgeous kid. an angel.

Danial, aunty indy minta maaf. aunty indy memang nak tengok Danial tadi. esok, aunty indy janji datang ok sayang. Min, be strong. i wish i was there with you. how i wish i actually called you earlier. Min i’m sorry. i’m so, sorry.

No duit raya for Danial. only a bunch of al-Fatihah…

p.s.: angels always and only go to heaven.

one way or another

sometimes, what works for other people might not work for us. and vice versa. in looking for what’s best for us, it requires us to take chances.

take chances. failures only mean we learn something new, and failures open a room for us to get better and even better.

i tried some ways. and they didn’t work. now is time to try another, and see if we fit. if we don’t, i’ll keep on walking and searching. “if you haven’t found what you’re looking for, keep looking,” Steve Jobs once said. who does not believe in Steve Jobs.

p.s.: hello, world.